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2009-12-17T08:39:00.000-08:00

hello wonderful people of the world.
its been ages since i last freaking update my blog.
haha.
but ok now...will resume back after being on hiatus mode.
for now..just a short opening post.
will update soon. will do ! haha
=D

I LOVE HAFFIS SHARIZAL.
SO UBER MUCH.

enuf said.

to some peeps, sorry....

K. BYE.

i love u, haffis sharizal.

FerKa|sha's 3rd monthasary

2009-07-04T08:26:00.000-07:00

Helloooooo rakyat jelata singapura!!!

=D

tga takde keje so i just update lor.
am sms-ing 5zullah while typing dis entry and also am watching tv...
multi-tasking babe. haha

today.SATURDAY.4th JULY 09.
marks FerKa|Sha's 3rd monthasary.
weee !!!! =D

i just find it funny to think back on how d 3 of us met and became close.
i never expect this. we are soo close eventho kite baru kenal..d closeness mcm dh 1 or 2 yrs dh kenal.. hmm...
wadeva it is im just so uber grateful to have them in my life.
=D

FerKa|Sha.
Fer...Ka|...Sha.
Ferrera (me)...Ka| (khairul)...Sha (aiSha).

i met aisha 1st during 4PM volunteer's training. normal meet up. din really slack together.
but we do MSN quite alot. haha..n random lepakin sessions wif d rest *ehem ehem*.

n me n aisha met khairul during 4PM nitecycling.
as he's our safety cyclist. (we were in d same group)
frm dere we FB-ing n chat which den leads to our 1st meet up..KARAOKE-ing !!! =D

as aisha n khai are in d same sch..n as i am schling nearby..
everyday after sch i wud drop by their's n lepak..
n i tell u..for weeks straight, i met them every single day except for sundays. hehs.
n dats wer we became soo close...

however, ours wasnt a smooth sailing one.
we went tru lotsa ups n downs...despite us knowing each other for awhile..
but we grew stronger every now n den.
only God noes how close we are.
we love each other soooooo uber much =D

enuf said.
take a look at these pictures.
we took a hell of pics...bnyk giller giller bnyk.
but i only randomly picked some.. d rest are in my FB. =D

- akak n icik. =D

- till we lay in d same bed...

- stucked in a kitchen .

- us. =D

- together in crazy tymes.

- in random tymes too.

- in retardness tymes.

- take 2.

- abg n akak. i love them.

- d rings which hold us together. =)

- FerKa|Sha. =D

- abg/khai love ussss =D

- =D

- n we love ABG/KHAI sooo uber much much. =D

currently, akak is in KL having a short getaway trip.
hope she's enjoying herself.
hopefully she doesnt get toooooo wasted. =D
akak, jgn sampai end up wif random mat rempit ok syg?

n currently abg is sick. tsk.
i hope he will be fine asap.
im worried. tsk.
i check on him every now n den.
abg,get well soon aite...

am looking forward for another FerKa|Sha lepak session to celeb our 3 monthasary.
hopefully all goes well for us n we grow stronger by each minute and nothing cud ever break us up.
remember our promises/oaths, loves? =)

suddenly im thirsty.
tsk.
gtg, loves.

=D

suck it up.

2009-07-03T00:04:00.000-07:00

Hear me mister fucker.

Your subtleties, they strangle me..I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants.. and all the needs, all I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing, my mind's unweaving.
Maybe it's best you leave me alone. A weight is lifted.
On this evening, I give the final blow.

A falling star, least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know.
I look at you with such disdain .

Now I'm on my own side, it's better than being on your side.
It's my fault when you're blind, it's better that I see it through your eyes.
All these thoughts locked inside. Now you're the first to know.

When darkness turns to light, it ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right.
It's too late to fight. It ends tonight.

---- It Ends Tonight : All American Reject.

u deserve no respect at all.

dere are loads of negativity which is going around in my head. yesterday. now.
and its clouding my mind. suffocating my every breath.
its been awhile since i last being in dat end shit moment.
i cant let it all out. mayb i just dont want to. here. or to anyone.

the moment the left cheek feels dat skin, wif an ouch..
d only thing that goes tru the mind is : it ends tonight.
im not referring to d above song.
its just : it ends tonight, mister idiot.

i hate u.
i just wana take a carrot and shove it up ur ass.
i just wana take a screwdriver and screw ur eyes out its sockets.
i just wana drag out ur tongue and shred it up using d paper shredder.
i just wana use a can opener and pick off every nail or urs.
i just wana hammer down ur dick using a meat hammer.
i just wana pull off ur balls and place it inside a blender.
i just wana pour super glue all over ur head and hair, let it dry hard and then pluck if off one by one.

i can list down all d things i wud love to do to u.
i will do all dat to u..wif LOVE.

suck ur own balls ,mister fucker.

i gtg.
im being lenient a lil towards my entry.
or i wud love to fill it up wif lotsa F words.
n NOW, only 10% of my anger is out.
d rest... =)
bye.

nice.

2009-06-15T22:25:00.000-07:00

when there's nuthin much left to be done.
ull seek fer pleasure.
when there's nuthin much left to be said.
ull cry fer laughter.
when there's no one else to turn to.
ull breathe fer her.
when everything else seems to bother.
ull try to hinder.
when pain makes it look easier.
ull turn stronger.
when the one uve been lookin fer never seem so near.
ull make do with wats weaker.
when waiting's a candy.
lemme tell u ure crazy.
and when u find it perfect.
its already not yours.

think.

sumhow the pleasure feeling which i found from someone is coming back..
his come back presence truly exhibits a nice feeling..
yearning it?
indeed it was left in a tiny corner of my heart and i did try to ignore that feeling..
but sumhow it has all added up to a bigger pile.
cant be left ignored anymore..i guess..
d only reason y i left it hidden in a corner is bcoz i do see a possibility dat it will lead to another issue but i just dont wana get involved in dat issue at dis moment as my perception of dat issue kinda differs frm anybody else as i gained it from my past experience..own experience.

however..
mayb i will just let it flows out bit by bit.
n am sorry for hiding dis n being away, silencing my presence.

peeps..confused?
haah.

Kau hanya wajah biasa di mataku
Pasti lenyap sederas tibamu
Tak perlu aku memikirkan mu selalu

Kau tiba pada waktu tak terduga
Dalam mimpi dan di dalam jaga
Sehingga aku bukan diriku yang dulu

Soalnya hati, sukar di mengerti
Apa terjadi di luar kawalan diri
Entah mengapa sejak bersua
Aku dilanda resah
Kau mewarnai mimpiku
Ku dalam igauan rindu

Kau yang biasa kini istimewa
Engkau membuat hidupku berubah
Yang ku cari-cari selama ini
Telah ku temui…

figure it out urself.

bye.

2009-06-08T01:28:00.000-07:00

....

Boooooo..

my blog is now officially re-opened back once again.

due to some terkencet dan masalah teknikal, i closed my blog. its been mths and now..im OPEN ! =D

so till here.

i will update more in next entry aye.

now kena selit back into my study mode. (ya right)
my headache has been cucuk-ing my head since just now.
i dono y but i think d headache has something against me.

k2. gtg.

love ya peeps.

2009-01-18T08:44:00.000-08:00

Hell-O Everybody.... =)

Sorry for d absence.
A lot of people asked why didnt i update n yada yada..
LOL
Korg suke bace blog aku tap tak reti nk tag kat blog aku ah?
HMPH.
It works both way..ok people? hehe..

Im cool. Im fine.
I do still have soar throat. tsktsktsk
so peeps, bear wif my rock voice for the tyme being..ok?
tsk.

Let's just update bout my weekends since i have ntg to update but peeps bugged me so.
Malas nie actuallie..nk update pics sume..grr...

SATURDAY, had a mini surprise picnic for Irwan.
i woke up early in d morning on a Saturday,which i seldom do..n whipped up his favourite dish.
D smell filled up d whole house...it even woke mama up.

As i was preparing to pack it up..
Mama came and gave me this "are-you-serious" look..
i just ignore it n continue doing wad i was doing coz i was pretty much catching d time.
Mama asked me why did i tapao..
i just merely told her, its for lunch.
n she kip on asking why and for who n yada2..
i just smiled n din say anything..

she kinda fed-up..hehs.. coz i never cook for anyone else beside my family..
oh well, i did cook for frens for picnic but not specially cook dis lauk lah..
mama just reminded me to smile and selawat.
which i usually did..
n when she's 3 feet away frm d kitchen exit,
she smiled and said " Good Luck" and left.
haha.. LOLOLOLOL

kinda rushing here and dere coz i have volunteer meeting thingy ah 4PM at 10am later..
4PM as in a malay youth org not the TIME. ok,peeps?. =D

D meeting was fun..really..
met up wif a bunch of new and cool peeps.
slacked..talked-cock..crapped..laughed,...
=D

Ended early so headed to Bishan to meet Irwan as he was from work.
Bought rice at d foodcourt .
Met him up and we both spent 40mins heating our butts otw from Bishan to Marine Parade.
n he kept on trying to guess wad i had planned for him.. =P

So we found a bench..sat n i told him d surprise.
i cant describe his reaction towards d surprise.
which i specially cooked for him his fav dish.hehs.
im happy dat he liked it..he ate pretty much..tak cukop lagi..heh.

wahlandey..1st tyme dok aku buat kerje gini...
1st tyme masak tok org lua...
nervous giller.....
im just contented dat he appreciated it.
=)

he brought along his guitar n he played it while singing sum songs..indon songs...his own songs...sounded romantic huh huh huh?

haha..truout d evening..,truout d sunset session..=D

personally, i appreciated wad he had done..even if it was just small things but it did make me smile. =)

its been awhile since i last saw him..but den....hush hush. haha....although i think wad i had done for him may be not as big or grand or tak menepati citarasa ke..but im grateful dat he liked it.. =)

so..enuf said.. pics below.

SUNDAY...a slacked day..

i actuallie jogged in d wee morning hours..for freaking 30 whole mins..ok ok, it might sound like DUH to u..

but personally, it was a nice achievement for myself who havnt been jogging for months...hahahaha

n guess wad i did for the whole afternoon?

i karaoke-ed at home...alone..

sum asked me out for jalan2 n dates but malas lh...

my parents n d rest were out and tada...

hahahaha....

sang wif my rock-kapak voice..

LOL

PS: Happy belated 28th birthday, Irwan. =)

Hope u liked it all. Its just a small thing from me. Ntg much.

Sorry if it didnt meet ur expectation kape...wrong location kape..haha.

But i felt good that u liked it. =)

and...Thanks. =)

Done,

LOVE..FYRA.

2009-01-07T07:38:00.000-08:00

Hell-O everybodyyyyyyyy..

i noe how much u all missed me..
lagi2 si Mr Shah a.k.a ASH. =D
oh Ash..i noe u miss me..
=D

well...during my absence, there were lotsa things happened around.
joy..pain..laughter..smile..tears..n etc.

But now..a new year just begun.. n im sure im not d only one who is hoping for a better n brighter future...ryte,peeps?

Too much things happened but lets not talk bout them,ok?
lazy liao..tooo many...dah nnt satu entry je makan berpuluh-puluh page.
unless ur my peminat setia mcm ASH. =D
im making u famous here, ash. =D

Countdown at Marina was fun.. really..
apart frm getting the honour to spray foam onto ASH.. =D
n felt free love from those banglas around..
n got winked n smiled at..
n cute policemen cum my heroes around to save me..indeed dere was once who saved me from those freaking banglas... =D

ok lah..not much to talk about sey..
n laziness starts to smack my butt.

lau korg perasan, bnyk kali name ASH disebot.
hahahaha..

=P

so enjoy these b4-&-after countdown pics.

>>> A unique pose frm Yours Truly. =D

>>> While i was trying hard to get d network n when Faizal got mum.

>>> when faizal got his 1st facial wash.

>>> when raudah got her last facial wash.

>>> n when fyra n faizal kidnapped those 2 strangers for a one night out. =D

>>> n hey,dat red guy aint MY guy,freakos.

>>> when faizal got caught in d act.

>>> oh sweet..couple?..hehs

>>> yours truly n her bestest brother. =D

>>> n ya,i love her . =)

>>> n when fyra sengaja enter frame kacau daun. Oops.!

>>> no words to say.

>>> faizal: erm...

>>> raudah: bleargh!

>>> fyra: peace. LOL

>>> ehem2. =D fyra je single out. sedey kapa.

>>> haha..see, faizal..i told u she tot ur a freak. LOL

so yea..datz all...more pics in facebook.

malas lh.

bluek!

so ASH, had fun?

haha

gtg now.

Love,

FYRA

pics talk

2008-12-14T09:51:00.000-08:00

Hell-O people.

Yest's the day i hurt someone.
Im sorry, but I have to do so..im sure u understand my situation.
=)

Btw, was out at work and met up my Lepak Kakis afterwards.
Went to LauPaSat. And mind you, its drizzling alright.
And hell yea, we sat at d open space, under those drizzles.
Had random satay and teh tarik.
But the teh tarik was damn bad....bitter. bleargh!

Den walked all the way, under those drizzles, to Esplanade.
Took lotsa dirtay pictures.
hahahaha..
This is what we always do,baby.
=)

So,let those pics talk.

And someone has been very quiet.
Did i do any mistake?
Or ur just plain busy?

Have u peeps ever felt this way.."afraid of losing sumthing which is not even urs in the first place"?
Currently, im feeling dat.
I wonder what so special bout it till im afraid of losing it.
But matters of the heart really are complicated.

......many captures ur eyes......

......some captures ur attention......

......but only One captures ur heart......

oh baby,please tell me its just my stupid feeling..
worrying over something which im not supposed to..
tell me it aint right..

ok2.enjoy these pics.

>>>Otw to LauPaSat<<<

>>>At LauPaSat,under those drizzles<<<

>>>Otw to Esplanade<<<

>>>Otw back home<<<

>>>Pleasure<<<

im Done.

Love,

FYRA

prankes

2008-12-11T19:27:00.000-08:00

hey hey hello hello.

read Hik syg's blog and i really supported her lah sey.
felt so fucked up on those humans..
why are they being created and send down to earth in the first place?
if wad they do is only adding much sadness and anger and pisses from others..
oh well, look from the other side, we could take it as a pengajaran..
we can learn sumthing from it n also preventing ourself from doing wad they do..ryte?
atleast there's a good thing bout them. hah =)

im not being sarcastic but if u really try to see what is happening around u, thus u cud really notice wad is truly happening.
those unexpected scenarios..shocking discoveries..
it made u realise that the longer u live, d more u will go through and see things clearly around u.
at one point, u will feel kinda afraid as u surely dont noe what's another unexpected thing u'll see or find.
but from another point, it makes u stand on ur feet all the time and take things around u seriously (but not TOO serious)...

but hey.
LIVE AND ENJOY LIFE TO THE FULLEST !!!!! =)

u can do what u want and can in life while ur still living.
but still, limits do exist.
and atleast, have a thought on God and ur love ones.. okie dokie? =)

Life in Singapore is getting tougher and tougher.
Job opportunity is getting smaller and smaller.
Singaporeans are getting little and little.
Foreigners are getting more and more.
till u can see, Orchard is now 80% fully infested with foreigners instead of ur own people.
and im not talking bout tourists here.

and i will be one of those Singaporeans migrating to other countries to continue surviving.
dont blame us for leaving tho.
sumthing shud be done to stop what is going on before who noes, Singapore might be taken over by foreigners. woarrrghhh!!!!

its not that im thinking too much.
lets just put it dat im truly aware of the surrounding.
atleast i do take note and plan for myself...and also plan some other alternatives for backup.

imagine this scenario : U being the EMPLOYER and is choosing an employee from this two individuals.
1- Singaporean. Highly educated (Masters in Business).
2- A foreigner. Educated too (Degree / Masters in Business).
So which will u choose?

Wud u choose (1) because he's a Singaporean and u want a true Singaporean to really assist u in ur job pathway to future success?
or Wud u choose (2) because u cud pay lower salary and thus, only consuming a little portion or ur company's assets?

=)

ok2. dont think too much.
i noe i have been talking bout serious business.
dont get stressed up aite.
i shall stop and lets talk to a more hilarious side.

oh ya, funny things happened yesterday.
met nisa wif her anak sedara.
and for once, it made me feel of not wanting to have a child in the future. hahahaha

and to Faizal if ur reading this: Mangkok kau. Kate nak join tap tertibe senyap. Mentang2 ade date baru (haha), kawan baik kau lupe siot.. rabaaaak.... bile kau nak date dgn aku?. haha.

someone came up to me and offered me a modelling job.
a local malay bridal company.
not the 1st time tho..but kinda rejected..not now..next time perhaps?
=)

den met up wif Syaiful BF !!!!
its been sooooo long,ryte BF?
eventho the meeting was a short one, but seriously it was filled up with lotsa cool talks. haha.

Syaiful : Im now having a 3weeks break..so next week can date my GF again..

Me: Eh?..yeke?..coz i noe my BF is surely a very busy man mah..wer got time to layan me.. hah

a really funny..cool..humble dude...
miss u lah sey.
will meet u up again next week ok BF?
=)

and btw, my Birthday party cum dinner is brought forward to 20th Dec instead.
I have bOoked a big table in Al-Majlis..after 6pm.
So i really nid to re-confirmed the number of people coming.
in other words, if u want to see being sabo-ed or pranked, sila lah datang and ketawekan.
atleast, i will make u laugh and laughter is the best medicine. =)
hahahaahhahahahahaha

and as usual..
on 24th..will be alone.
Lonesome is not that baaaad..ryte?
used to it. =)

got to go now.
have crapped alot.
taking care, people.

Love,
FYRA

life's like this

2008-12-09T18:24:00.000-08:00

hey hey hello hello.

yesterday was a nice day.
being a Faci for the day was incredibly cool..but yet, it was d very 1st tyme and yet nervousness was sure taking over me min by min.

i have a stagefright.
but cool,i gotta overcome dat.
and listen, my students werent kids, they were working adults, mind dat.

to me, its kinda cute lah..
hehe..
oh well, it gave me the opportunity to gain experience and points for my projects.

when i entered the arena, they welcomed me wif smiles..and laughter..and whistles..haha.
they are cool people..eventho they came from diff age groups and races (majority is Malay), but they sure could communicate very well with each other..
dah mcm members dok..
aku pon dh mcm termasok dlm geng dorg.. haha

among those adults, there were a sister and her younger brother whom initially i thought they were husband and wife since they seemed so close.
haha..
and den a funny thing happened during a break...

the adults bombarded me wif questions..about everything.
since im their new relief temp Faci..so we mingled around..
so mcm biase lah...soalan pasal dh berpunya ke belum..
tu dh jadi lumrah manusia tok tanye pasal tu..
nasib baik aku masih single, taklah dorg nk tahu sape matair aku.
tap single2 pon susah gak, lau ade je org nk kenalkan..

Adam: so Miss Fyra, are u attached or still single?

Me: oh im currently single.. =) no plans to get attached yet for now.

Everybody looked at me in disbelief and den laugh..

Justin: hahahahahh...for sure or not..we agreed dat ur a gorgeous lady, don lie saying no BF lor..

Me: realli lah..im single..wad for i wana lie..i get nothing what..

Fiona: den if like dat one, im sure later d malay misters here will try to woo u lor..

Laughter went around...

Me: Try me lor..i sumtymes just bo layan any guys..so its hard for those who wana woo me..can never work one..how bout if im saying, im dating someone right now?

Adam: for real?..no chance?

Me: =)

Fiona: she's still single..don care dating someone or not lah..d thing is, she's still single.

Everybody laughed.

Me: LOL. ^_^v

a funny bunch of gerek people.
made me feel old for a moment.haha
but as we shared about life experiences, all was worth it.

Mateen added me in msn yesterday n we chatted for d 1st tyme.
like what i have chatted with Mateen yesterday nite, made me wonder dat people do make assumptions based on whatever they see on d surface.
But in order to get d facts right, u nid to go tru d surface.
Mateen was such a cool dude.. he rarely smile but u can see dat he's full of funny yet incredible tales to tell. hehs.
got to noe dat Mateen's a full time staff in 4PM..hah.
ni lau we are seen to be talking to each other, for sure rumours will be up.
but heck. mulot org..mentang2 single je,ade je nk link to sape2.

Like when knowing someone, sumtimes their trueself is forged or covered in order to not leave a bad mark.
But if there is such a person who does dat so, is he a coward for not showing his trueself as one wud do to show his sincerity in befriending someone..?
Or he did it so dat d other person wont run away knowing his truself is coz he really2 wana noe dat person..?

Accept someone for who he is..not for what he is.
How far does dat quote really go?

N how about, " Jangan kerana nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga"..?
How far isit true?

only a mistake, and it leaves a huge impact and changes everything in a split second.
regardless of all d good things happened..a mistake means so much more than d rest?
no 2nd chances?..like everyone deserve to have?
people do make mistakes..either u forgive and forget...or u forgive but never forget.

put urself in my shoes for a moment, and think wad i feel.

ah..ive been thinking too much on general stuffs.
tyme to relaaaaaaax....

n i miss my teh gajah buddy, Ir.
hope he's doing fine.
as if he's gona read dis.
hehs

gottogo.
gona b a model for sham d photographer later.
ooh....how sexy.
haha

Love,
FYRA

done

2008-12-08T11:08:00.000-08:00

i feel down.
i feel bad.

=)

and aunt was warded justnow in Hospital Tun Aminah in JB.
stupid high blood pressure.

n lovely HP dah sakit2.
signalling to get a new HP.
haha.

my deepest prayers for my aunt for fast recovery.
as well as to Ir's aunt's too...
and to sis suzannie, hopefully u get d job...

im sorry..wad done is done. it will b d 1st and d last.
hopefully, u will open up a new book.
lets scrape d dirt away..

oh ya, i miss my silat trainings too.

n i still feel bad. =)
looking at the bright side of things in life.

Love,
FYRA

n when...all is good.

2008-12-07T09:12:00.000-08:00

Hey Hey hello hello.
Kinda bored and thus, update blog lor.

Raudah sent me sum pics taken on Friday.

So since i have no topic to be crapping about, i shall just update bout wad happened on Friday, inclusive of d pics taken.

Have yet to get other pics from Ir's camera.

Let's start..

On Friday....met up wif Hik syg n slacked for awhile..den headed to Raudah's house to continue slacking.

Her bedroom is filled wif Garfield stuffs..flush toys..pictures..stickers..magnets..n etc.

Had Asam Pedas which her mum cooked and also a dish which she doesnt like.

Yep,she doesnt eat fish.

We sang..crapped...laughed.. =)

>>> n when Hik syg goes bubbly.

>>> n when Hik syg goes sweet.

Met Ir at E-hub and headed to Korean BBq.

Had Hot Hot Chickie..

n i tell u...it sure was Hot after few bites of it. haha.

n pics below.

>>> n when its not me who finished it all.

>>> n when fyra's again.

>>> n when fyra and ir were going tru them.

>>> n when Raudah ...

>>> n when besties got together. =)

Done eating, Hik had to leave.

We sent her home and fetched Ir's friend, Salman, and headed to El-sheikh for sheesha.

i am a sheesha freak but on dat night, im cool. =)

im sure gona behave like one sheesha freak on d next sheesha outing.

*evil laughs*

Had great sheesha session.

Teka-teki..jokes..craps..games..laughs..giggles..winks..smiles..

>>> n when im in a black room.

>>> n when Ir was smiling.

>>> n when Salman was doing dat.

>>> n when Fyra and Raudah got together.

>>> n when one goes wink n one goes ... and one goes blur.

>>> n when Fyra jakon tak pernah tgk asap. haha

Salman left n we did too. Headed to Marina Barrage for d 1st time. =)

It was awesomely nice..with d lights and freaking beautiful views.. =)

Thanks Ir. =)

>>> n when fyra wana step cute for food. haha

>>> n when fyra ...

>>> n when both of us went BeYou-tiful. =)

>>> n when a model meets a photographer.

>>> n when Ir goes mooshy...(mushy). hahahahahah

>>> n when Raudah said "look at d camera".

>>> n when a scene taken like dat of Cik Salmah and Abg Ramly in Bujang Lapok.

Its time n we left.

Sent Raudah home and headed to Changi for Teh Tarik.

Met Bro Farhan and he's getting cooler =D

N headed to d beach itself for mind-resting moment..

slacked.................till 5+ am.

n den headed home.
Done.

im tired.

got to go.

P/S: Appreciate is what every person wants. Whether u appreciate someone or someone appreciates u. But, it works both ways. It takes two hands to clap,true?. Felt not being appreciated sucks big time. Those who dont appreciate u or act mcm dumb idiots, they arent worth it. =)

LOVE,

FYRA.

n when....

2008-12-04T10:52:00.000-08:00

hey hey hello hello

n when fyra's back again for more craps.
=D

sorry for the sudden disappearance as usual.
i wud only update if dere's any new unexpected things happened.
hehs.

its hard to find sumone whom u really can communicate with on everything..
n when fyra said everything, i really mean EVERYTHING.
hehs...
lotsa questions and particularly sum general things which i have been wondering about and wanting to ask around..but its kinda hard to find sumone whom u can really discuss with.

however lately...
communication seems to be soo easy with this particular human being.
don ask me y since i myself is not so sure.
i can ask anything, can talk about everything without thinking twice on how dat person might be wondering why am i asking all those "lame" and "stupid" questions.
which in turn makes me a more talkative person and at d same tyme, feel good bout myself..
=)

oh wells.. atleast in this small country called Singapore, i have found that particularly funny person who noes how to tickle and at d same tyme, makes me feel good bout myself. =)
thanks okie dokie. =)

ok, i shall now stop talking bout that topic.
coz i noe at this very moment..u peeps out there who are reading this entry right now, are trying to find out who's dat particular person.
LOL
don even bother to find out who's dat person might be.
tak payah lah kamu semua berpening kepala memikirkan siapa.
tak penting.
=)

Atlast, ive got my DEMPSEY RD's Ben&Jerry !!!!
im soooooooooooooooo FREAKING HAPPY lah sey.
unexpected.surprised.
=D

and i have a surprise for U.
since U have brought me there, unexpectedly.
but a surprise is a surprise.
just wait and see.
a token of appreciation.
=)

k lh. gotta work tomoro.
aiyoo..

n i gotta sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love,
FYRA

Love ones

2008-11-24T09:39:00.000-08:00

PERGI SELAMANYA.
- KAMIKAZE.

Malam kian melangkah pergi, masih aku sendiri termangu dalam sepi..
Dalam kelam hadir bayangmu, bagai mengundang mimpi sebab kau dan aku,
sayangnya kau tiada disisiku....

Masih terbayang segalanya, bagaikan semuanya mimpi belaka..
Hilang tak mungkin kan kembali, mengubah yang tersurat dalam hidupmu..
Kau pergi tak kembali selamanya..

Walau berkali ku tangisi, tak mungkin kau kan kembali..
Ku tak berdaya mengharungi sendiri, tanpamu hidupku tak bererti..
Hari berlalu kau kian jauh di alam abadi di pusaramu..

Hanya doa yang ku iringkan, dalam hiba aku tangiskan..
Hilang tiada pengganti, permata yang berharga dalam hidupku..
Segalanya datang dan pergi, ku tahu sukar bagiku menelan kenyataan takdir telah tertulis untuk dirimu..

Hari kian silih berganti, masih aku sendiri termangu dalam sepi..
Dalam kepekatan malam ku, ku lihat lambaian mu dari syurgawi..memanggilku..

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This song really means alot to me.
The lyrics..d melody..
If u want to see me cry, let me listen to this song.
i nvr fail to cry upon listening.

A woman's tear is a man's weakness.
True?
hah.

Tears are every woman's most powerful and manipulative weapon, but can i weep my way to happiness? =)

Love,
FYRA

P/S: to Bro FadZryn and Sis Suzannie : I really love u both. Eventho we are not related in a way, but since u both are Arwah's lovelies cuzzies, ur my lovelies too. =) And Thanks Bro for d treat at Copenhagen cafe Taka on Sun. Missing u both alot. =)

alahai mama..

2008-11-22T09:48:00.000-08:00

And now, its 148am.

An impromptu entry.

..Kept my tears inside.Because i know if i started, i wud keep crying for the rest of my life with u.
I finally built up the strength to walk away.
Don't regret but i still live with the side effects...

Every new person ive met..
Every new friend ive made..
D same old set of r'ship questions are always there.
Who.What.When.Why and How.

If u asked me for fun, i wud just simply answer u wif a =) .
If u asked me coz u really wana noe, den mayb i wud.
But if i do, den ur just plain LUCKY.

If u wana talk about LOVE, we can have a debate together.
Plainly, LOVE is not a bad thing.
It doesnt hurt anyone.
The only one who's to be blamed, is the person who gave LOVE a bad name.

And when they asked me, what's my goal n stuffs..
And when i answered them,saying that i want to set up this particular business..
What i received were blank stares..giggles..laughter..and..
"Before u find for others, go and find one for yourself first."

-_-"

n listen hard..
read this carefully..

my mama had included dis particular rule or "law" to be into what i want in my Husband-to-be..
and that is..
"i want ur husband-to-be to have a mixed of an indian blood. That's a MUST. Not those typical mamaks ok. I want a fair skin one. And im sure u wud love that too. "

SOO....
if any of u out there have friends or know sum1 with a mixed of an INDIAN BLOOD and a FAIR SKIN one, do inform me.
Hidung mesti mahu mancung, coz dats one of my fetishes.
Fair skin with/and hidung mancung guys just captures my eyes.

If any of u is one of those kind, den im sorry if u notice or catch me looking at u.
=)

BTW, i noe its hard to find guys whom really fits my criterias.
Lagi2 when mama wants to add dat rule.
TSK.
nampaknye, tak kahwin lah aku.
hahahaha

k.
gtg

LOVE,
FYRA.

when d lost one has suddenly returned

2008-11-16T06:43:00.000-08:00

Listen.

AHMAD ZACHKRY MIRZA.

i knew him when i was in K2.
he's d only son of my dad's bestest friend.
my dad n his dad has lost contacted once but then fate bring them back.
n since then, me n Zach syg grew up together.

since i was just a kiddo at that tyme, i took him as my biggie bro.
as time passed by...as we grew older...its already not about being "siblings" anymore.
its more than that.

when i was 12...n he was 18..we did talk about love.
to think back..it was cute.. =)
n yada yada....n tadaaa....we were an item.
both families knew about it.
initially, it was both families' plan to unite us together.
thus, restu keluarga pon dapat. =)

we have been tru many ups n downs truout d rship.
but we stood strong.
hands in hands.
as we played our parts well.

Zach syg was a very patient person.
strong-willed. tolerant. honest. understanding. NOT hot tempered. soft spoken. Loyal. Faithful.
Romantic. Gentleman. Respectful. Cheery. Bubbly. Joker. Perfecto personality. Good cook.
he had everything in wad i want in a guy.
seriously, i can say out all those good words for him.
because, he's a really great person.
If dere's such thing as Perfect, i wud call him a Perfect person.
=)

if i did sumthing wrong..Zach syg wud not straightaway scold me.
BUT, he will talk to me in a nice manner.
as he did respect ladies.
n DATZ very important.

in terms of looks.
hidung mancong. fair skin. tall. thin. well-clothed. neat presentable. dimples.
=)

after telling u guys his personality n looks wise..
tell me...how can i not fall in love wif him?
=)

me and zach syg..together wif both of our families..
had planned to get us engaged when i reached 22....n he wud b 28.
n get married when im 24-25 n he wud b 30-31..
=)

we had d same birthdate.
dats soo cool. =)
every raye, our mums bought two cloths (kain) n made that into 4 baju for me n Zach syg.
=)

1yr anny passed..2yr anny passed..n comes d 3yrs anny..

3yrs anny...28th sept 2003..
i was 15 n he was 21..
planned to have a candle-light dinner . food cooked specially by him.
but....

while Zach syg was otw to fetch me in Bedok..on his bike..
i was standing n saw him from afar..
we waved n smiled...
n suddenly...an unexpected thing happen..
which ended all dis in a blink of an eye...
which ended everything in a split of a second...
without being prepared at all.

a chibai drunk driver in his black car..suddenly sped up n hit d right-back side of Zach's bike.
n Zach syg was flung over...n hit head first..
a blue birthday box which he brought along, was thrown up high.
n at that fucking very moment..
i stood still.
tears out.
speechless.
mind jammed.
it happened right infront of my very eyes.

i ran up to him..
wif him still breathing..
wif blood oozing out from his nose and mouth..
wif eyes looking upon me..
wif a smile..
i still remember when he uttered, "happy 3yrs anny syg..i love u so much..im sorry.."..
while trying to wipe away my tears.

n then...
he led out d last breath..
eyes closed.
smiled.

at that very moment,..
felt as if the world came crashing down on me.
unbeliveably..unrealistically..
but yet..
a truth.

future plannings all gone..no engagement..no marriage..
our 3yrs anny had turned into his death date..
fucking on our 3yrs???
i noe him since k2..it shud be like i lost him after 7yrs knowing him.
argh!!!!!

he was d one who made me d way i realli am.
he was d reason i smiled n laugh.
he was d one who taught me to be patient.
n i have no excuse to fall out of love wif him.

since then..i prayed to God every now and then for him..
let Zach syg be placed wif those pious people.
May God look over him.
Al-Fatihah.

n when after another 2 bullshit bastards who gave love a bad name.
i changed my prayers for Zach syg.
i added .." Oh God..if possible,please let him return. I love n miss him so. As, i noe..nothing is impossible in Your eyes.."
since then, i prayed wif addition to that.
never once i missed a prayer for him.

i knew..i can NEVER find sum1 like him.
if i am to fall in love again, it wud only happen if i have found a guy like Zach syg.

But now...dengan kuasa Tuhan..
sum1 appeared..into my life..
n dat sum1 looks exactly like Zach syg.
d 1st tyme i saw him, its like as if im looking at Zach syg.
shocked.realli damn shocked.
even my cuzzins were shocked when dey saw his pics.
seriously....he looks exactly like him.
ONLY his hair is diff.

sinc i just knew him..all d while..wad i have observed so far...
personality wise..jokes and craps..n etc..
same as wad Zach syg had.
dere are 7 people wif same faces all over d world.
it can never have 2 person wif d exact personality..
so he was like 95% twin of Zach syg.

when i look at him, it feels like im looking at Zach syg.
when i chat wif him, it feels like im chatting wif Zach syg.
when he smiles n jokes and when he made me smile n laugh, it feels like in the past.
i miss d old moments.

unbeliveably..unrealistically..
but yet..
a truth.

Thanks to U for ur presence.
Thank God for this miracle.
Its because of U, dat i have been smiling n laughing inside out.
Zach syg gone away wif my smile n laughter.
But Thanks to U, dat u brought it back again.
I realli appreciated it.

I realli dono if i shud tell U bout this.
About being twin of Zach syg...about bringing back joy n laughter in my life now.
Coz i don wana freak U out..
who noes..u wud b freaked out n slowly disappear..
n i don wan dat to happen.

i gtg.

again..
THANKS to U for everything.

Much Love,
FYRA

kaki5

2008-10-24T12:46:00.000-07:00

Hello Hello !!!

slept pretty last last night..
at freaking 4am..hah!...

why?
because si ATOK SAIF (saifurrijal) scared me away.
Congrats to ATOK SAIF kerna kamu berjaya menakutkan saya!!!
=D
n dude, i wont talk to u eva again..
*whistle...whistle..*

Thanks to Mr Art for accompanying me truout d nite..
till 4am..dat is.
Had an interesting chat wif him over in facebook.
Datz one great thing bout facebook : U CAN CHAT WIF ANY ARTIST WHO'S ONLINE. =D
but heck..we chatted like frens..not like fans. =)

Fyra: ...needs slp.
Art: slp means sleep or slap?
haha..how cute...lol.

starting to sway into his words.
*jeng.jeng.jeng*

saw dattttt?????

haha..

sheesha?? =D

woohoo... =)

Waaaay before dat, i had a date if Krun syg.

Went to Esplanade for KAKI5 performance.

During Tengku Adil's performance, Mr IsmaHairi played d violin.

n its like OMG OMG OMG.

where can u really find a malay male violinist here?...

in d orchestra,fyra?

yada yada...but its very very very rare.,...ryte??

AND, i found Mr Isma looked a lil like Mr H.

So Mr H, if ur reading dis, Mr Isma cud b ur long lost bro kot?

Classic pic of a violinist and a normal girl.

An updated one.

i swear i din say any bad words during dat.

n Krun wans his lone pic.

But fyra wants it to b a duet.

does she look familiar?

mind my look.

OMG.

Krun din want her pics to be uploaded due to sum reasons.

hah..!!.. =D

I really hope she cud accompany me to pestaraya tonight.

coz i have no one else...masing2 busy working.

adoi.

and im down wif a lil fever.

tsktsktsk

till den.

much love,

FYRA

Yesterday and Today

2008-10-22T08:17:00.000-07:00

Hello Hello.

Today was a fun slacked day.
Met up wif my GF.
Cant say out her name here due to some freako. haha..

Had dinner at Mcd Marina.
Saw Haffis working dere. haha..
Den headed to Esplanade concourse for some free performances.
ART FAZIL was dere!!!!
my lil bro loves him. but i totally forgot bout my bro as i was busy layan-ing Mr Art.
we chatted till all ended.
he even asked us along to Arab St for supper...for few times!!
but so sorry Mr Art...we have to turned down ur offer...but i promised dere will be next tyme!!
=D

pictures below.
dere will be another performance tomoro.
so GF...PLEASE do accompany me ok. =D

>> Saw dat man in white..dats Mr Art.

>> Shot one.

>> Shot two. sumthing's wrong.

YESTERDAY.
was a bad day but a great night to end all those shits.
I was chased by a grp of 5 stupid bloody idiotic matreps
pathetic.don even wana talk bout it.
PLZ don even ask.
im still very very very traumatised by it.

Met Nisa in d evening and had dinner at Mcd Marina.
i freaking waited 2hrs for her.
nasib aku syg kau..lau tak,dh lame aku blah.

after dinner headed to Sinema Old School for d screenings.
Missed d Blk 46 like toot.
Interesting films. Cant wait for next wk. =D
Met up wif Rezz dere too!!..
i dono y but i kinda miss his speech.haha.

and then,home.
pictures below.

>> Nisa and Fyra

>> Us in d dark.

>> Take one.

>> Take two.

>> ACTION !!

GTG.
Much Love,
FYRA

Raya wif da peeps.

2008-10-16T22:22:00.000-07:00

Hello Hello.
very utterly blardy shagged.
let d pics speak my story.
Raya wif Hik,Krun,Fig,Saif and Mamat.

Upon meeting Hik 1st thing in d afternoon...

B4 and after Woon's crib.

in Fee's crib.

Introducing Fig Tebal and his crib pics.

After Saif's crib. Unfortunately,we din take any pic at his crib. So we took in his car n yes,he drove us all d way.

At my buddy Eysham's crib. I miss him!! =D

B4 and after Haas's crib. His mom's spagetti goreng was awesomely yummy.

And now d 2nd last crib, my ex's crib. He's not dere. But i just wana c his parents,hoping to c dem fine and of definitely, my cute lil shafiq. I miss him like hell.

At d last house, azry's a.k.a Abg Roy. Puuiii!!!

n Tadaaa..

n gtg.

Much Love,

FYRA

what a wonderful day in red

2008-10-11T09:27:00.000-07:00

Hello Hello =D

Yest was a full day for me. Frm morning till night.
Tired but fun!!!
eventho dere was an abrupt change in plan.
but still, all went well. =)

Volunteered in an event by Fiknatics wif Krun syg.
n yeah baby, Mr Taufik Batisah was dere.
ehem ehem =D
Loads of pics were taken..
frm d personal handshake of me n Taufik's to a together pic. =D

After dat, me n Krun went to Hik's house to lepak.
mangkok hayon..Hik tak keje abeh tak tahu blg. mangkok peh org.
haha..
i took a pic of her wif her hair wrapped wif a towel..tap kesian lak nk upload kat sini.
aku peh SYG lh kn..nk kene jage name waterface die. =D

den after maghrib off to Hik's fren's open house at kallang wif her sis n her sis's fren.
so IMAGINE..me, Krun n Hik..all of us wore red blouse with black jeans and white tudung pergi raya kat rumah org.
Memang nasib badan tak kene halau.
haha

n while we tga syok makan..tertibe a big grp of guys n gals attacked his house.
ilang selera beb nk makan..nk kene jage tatasusila..hahahahaha
n one freaking guy wanted to get to noe me.
watthaheck.

Hik n Krun have a crush on a same person.
n he's my fren's bro.
hahahaha
u noe, i noe who ok SYGS.

hah..ok lh..enjoy d pics below..

> Hik. Krun. Fyra...all single. =D

> Grid girls. See our clothing.

> Lipstick promotion.

> don mind me.

> nk step cute. meluat!

> kirim slm sua tu kat blkng.. Bukan nasyid ok.
( TGK MUKE KRUN!!.hahahah)

> selenge peh org blkng. =D

> oh sweetstuffs. ryte? =D

> i love her =D

> till i wana kiss her. =D

> emo-shit ok.

> reflections are us.

> hear no evil...peek no evil..yawn no evil..

> bad tudung night.

> maintain ok krun.

> see d arrangement of our faces. =D

> fyra peace. d rest,wars.

> dimple. =D

> makcik2 tga syok story sal Taufik Batisah.

> fyra nk hentam org. Krun is using her killer stare.

> stoint.

> nk gado2 over goreng pisang.

> n lets make love =D

> mata fyra nk sebok2 enter frame.

> sharel !!!

> those 3 stooges.

> Hik's. Krun's n Mine. =D

> don even ask me wads on my mind.

> Fyra shhhh...

> Grid babes =)

> we have each other's back.

> she's my strength n motivator. =D

> fyra tga doa.

> dimple.

> kak fifi found a new FAR soulmate..

> can-did.

> cheekbones. =D

> peek me. don poke.

loads of pics i shall say.
deleted sum. coz of super selenge.
atleast i give u all a big feast on them
haha

gtg.
another full day tmr.

Much Love,
FYRA
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La La La La Life is wonderful

2008-10-09T08:09:00.000-07:00

Hello hello =)

starting this entry again with a BIG smile =D

had a date wif Syaiful !!
we were polymates wen i was in poly.
but we were not close due to fact we were both attached to others.
but now...tadaaa!!!...haha..

met up at Forum..walked all d way to Lucky Plaza for a pool session.
had few games..i won sum..n he won sum.. =D
we'll do another activity next tyme ok..
bowling ke..rock-climbing ke..wakeboarding ke.. canopy walk at Mount Faber ke.. =D

den headed to Centrepoint for Haagen Daaz ice-cream.
Thanks for introducing ok mister. =D
Had strawberry cheesecake n he got himself a vanilla caramel brownie.
Yummy yum yum. Superb!!

intendedly wanting to walk around town..but time din allow us to.
so we had our ice-cream while walking to Esplanade.
so imagine ok..from centrepoint orchard all the way to Esplanade..
we missed d sunset tho..but its ok..i'll catch it next tyme for sure.

all d way starting from d moment we met till d roof terrace, we chatted about so many things...everything...joking..crapping..laughing..giggling..interrogating..haha..
den we walked again to Beach rd as he wanted to get sumthin..
so again we walked all the way from esplanade to beach rd.
its fun tho..seriously..sape lah yg baik hati nk temankan aku g jalan2 pusing2 satu singapura kn.
=D

kesian plak tgk si syaiful penat. =S

unfortunately, as we reached Beach Rd nearly 9pm, most of d shops were already closed.
n he cant get his things.
but then, we had sum drinks..dah penat berjalan lah kn, nk kene tambah energy.. =D
chatted like usual.
den headed home. =)

at last...thanks to him, i got to do so many things which i have been wanting to do..
like pool..ice-cream..walking n exploring around..joking n crapping...laughing n giggling around..
its good for health =D

i wud wana have like dis outing again. haha.

> syok sendiri.com

> syaiful at a point.

> another professional pose. =D

> oh lovely Haagen Daaz. =D

> a wonderful view at night.

> look how serious he looked wen he's answering his sms.

> fyra n syaiful depan entrance esplanade

> wen u cant find d thing u wanted, u realli have to interrogate dat apek.

> can-did.

He's up for d Laupasat outing this sat wif my sygs, Hik syg and Krun syg.
i wonder who else will be joining. haha!

so tomorow another date with Krun syg.
continuing our stranded mission; finding RED attire.

btw, Mr H flew off to Gold Coast oreadi.
Have fun surfing..being a hunk..n suntanning.
Send my salam syg to Brad Pitt if u see him.
enjoy and taking care!!!! =D

till then,
much Love,
FYRA

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an evening with my Krun syg.

2008-10-09T01:00:00.000-07:00

Hello Hello =)

had a date wif Krun syg yesterday.
D day b4,had a date wif Hik syg and yest had a date with Krun syg.
When can i have a date wif d both of u sygs??
grrrr......

Anyways, after sch met Krun syg at Doby Goat mrt.
our mission: to window shop "RED" attire for d saturday's event.
went to Cotton On n dere's one which caught my attention.
But din buy coz we wana survey2 around.
next stop, This Fashion which was more mendak.
*shrugs*

we took a while to really decide wer to go after dat, bugis or town.
after much fighting, quarelling, squabbling, punching, kicking, pinching each others' cheeks n etc..we decided to head to town. =)

"eh kite g makan dulu boleh?..aku lapar beb..", kata Fyra.
"woargh!!...ni yg aku nk dgr..nk record tuu..", kata Krun syg.

so headed to Lucky Plaza to have dinner at Ayam Penyet Ria. (oops!! =D)
we shared a plate of gado2, a bowl of keropok and a bowl of tahu & tempe.
oh ya, i had my favourite drink of d day.. Happy Soda!!! =D
itu pon we took an hour to finish up..terkial-kial beb.
keropok pon kene tapao. haha.

while otw to far east to continue our mission, krun wants a toilet.
"eh,takde toilet yg lawa2 ke..?."..tanya Krun syg.
"ala..kat hotel ni pon ade pe toilet..rembat je..".kata Fyra dgn selamba yaya.
we were standing infront of Marriot hotel btw..so ape lag,masok lah.

dgn selamba yaya, we entered d hotel lobby..
buat muke senyum2 jadi no one will notice us.
pusing2 carik toilet..dpt jugak jumpe.

ape lagi..camwhore!!!!! =D

>d hotel lobby.

>syok sendiri.

> syok sendiri again

> kening naik..hidung naik sebelah..mulot senget sebelah..

> Lu rock ah beb!!!!

> puffer fish will puke looking at this.

> Krun syg and Fyra.

> a method to make ur nose smaller...and cuter.

> muke bacenz.

> like sum1 said, "smile wide-wide !!"

> krun syg ckp buat muke anorexic. hmm..

> satu togok..satu promote.

> i wana kiss d plant and it will change into a prince. no frog,so plant pon jadi.

> half Krun and fyra sane.

We took a while camwhoring in d toilet.
Dah susah2 buat muke selamba yaya masok hotel carik toilet,so make full use of d opportunity ok.haha

by looking at d tyme, we noe dat far east gona close soon..so heck..
went to MarketPlace at Paragon as Krun syg wana buy sumthin.
n presenting my favourite snack of all time...

> BABY CARROTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

eat them every day n u will have eyes like mine. =D
as sum of u have been asking wad have i done to deserve those "mesmerizing" eyes.. (gagagaga)
so here is my drug. =D

sent Krun at d busttop.
n i walked to d mrt.
something happened in NEL.
shoots.

conclusion: MISSION FAILED.
its ok..i have till friday. =)

i have another date later.
haha.
wonder who's my next date?
find out tmr.
dats if i wana reveal who. hah! =P
will update soon.

till then,
much Love,
FYRA
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an evening wif the babes

2008-10-07T19:58:00.000-07:00

Hello Hello =)

starting my entry with a BIG smile =D

was out wif my babes yesterday.
had a date wif them. *wink wink*.
unfortunately, Krun syg wasnt available. tsktsk.

its been mths since i last met up wif Hik syg lah sey..
i miss her like she misses me ok ok ok. hah!
amcm syg...aku dh kurus.. =D
haha

so Hik syg got another date wif Yun Nam Hair Care at PS..free trial appointment.
free ke haprak..20ketol beb melayang...haha
too bad i have no pics of her wif her shower cap on..
confem ~~selenge~~ lawa. =P

so while waiting for Hik syg having a good personal time wif the hair-care attendant..enjoy having sum1's fingers going tru her hair..
me n Elle have to stand n walk around this particular art n craft store..
for freaking 45mins ok...wif hungry tummies...
a hungry person is an angry person...GRRRRRRR....

Miss Elle bought scrapbook thingies for her guy. sucha sweet thing to do.. =)
i love doing art n craft too ..so anyone wants a scrapbook frm me?..
i will do it wif tender, loving care... =D

all done, n we headed to KFC for dinner.
datz my 1st meal of d day. tsktsk.
after sapedek...tadaaaa...camwhoring!!!!
pics below.. =)

> waiting for d consultant.

> step minah reps.

> Hik does look like a butch. haha.

> Elle. Fyra. Hik

> err....i do look stoint.haha

> step minah rep + cute. haha..bibir tipis dokz!

> i love her! =D

> another pose.

> both hands are hers. hah..

> Minah Rep. Minah Anorexic. Minah Mok.
( Hik dah ade nickname baru!!..haha. and sad pe aku kene anorexic.)

> distant makes the heart grows fonder..cheyy...

eventho its a short meeting, but atleast its better than none.
Hik syg bz keje mah..nk collect money tok kawin..haha
we always gurau2 like who's gona get married 1st..haha
surely its gona b Hik syg..haha..
who wants me anyway...
hah!

suddenly..i would really love to have an ice-cream by the esplanade bay.
anyone?..hehs. =)

btw !!!..i got a pair of tickets to President's Star Charity this sunday 12 Oct at Mediacorp.
=D
and also a pair of Quantum of Solace movie tickets. =)

gtg.
much Love,
FYRA

Encik Syaiful nye story

2008-10-06T22:11:00.000-07:00

Hello hello. =)

i'm 0K!!!
only im still coughing..due to d fact that i took my medication once awhile.hah!
i really nid sum1 who can really2 force that into my throat..
untuk kebaikan diri jugaklh kan kan kan..
so,who dares to take the risk?
*jeng jeng jeng*

wei..i cant help myself but to say this..
its been great knowing Mr Syaiful a.k.a Ipong..
seriously shoots.
so far..he's sum1 who craps alot..who can layan my craps (entah dia terpaksa lyn ke tak) and one full off energy..an early guy..hehs...strong and interesting guy indeed =)
seems like every single day,u will noe sumthing bout him..cool cool.
so far lah...i dont noe him that well..hehs..
SingLaLish...haha..

well,atleast there's sum1 who can make me smile 1st thing in the morning..
*whistle whistle*

i miss those peeps like him..who love crapping here and there..
but too bad coz sum of dem now dh MIA...gone missing maybe..busy wif life maybe..stucked to their cubicle maybe..busy collecting money for marriage maybe.. busy lyn suami mayb n etc..
susah eh lau members satu2 dh kawin..argh!!!

so to Hik syg...Krun syg..Nisa syg..Chacha syg..Dja syg..Shikin syg..Taufik Batisah syg..Hady mirza syg.. lau Syaiful nk termasok pon boleh...dan sape2 yg terasa nk sebok2 masok campor..
Korg jgn kahwin dulu ok..nnt aku kesepian..sob2.. =(
oh ya..Mr H yg nk kawin kan kan kan?
ke Rezz...hmm....

i love crappy people..they make my everyday a wonderful day..woohoo...

so..dengan kehadiran encik Syaiful (aisey..melayu..), ia jelas membuktikan bahwa org2 yg suka crap takkn hilang di dunia.. =)

alaaaah....
my BF katekan....
ehem ehem =D

Yesterday's impromptu jalan raya wif NP silat peeps (my juniors) was fun..really..
Eventho i only know like 5% of them (my batch), d rest was indeed crappy.
n like i said earlier..i love crappies...woohoo..
n its all thanks to Encik Syaiful lagi lah..
n kite sumer jln raya naik LORI..Mr Driver of the day was biaser jugak..itu Syaiful.. =D
its reallllly coolshit+fun okays.
teringin plak nk rounding2 satu singapore naik lorry..sape2 tgk confem jelous nye...
reached home around 130am..
hyaaakddduuuushhh!!!!!

So Syaiful,if ur reading this...amaciaaaaam...suke???...
im promoting u nie.. =D
wanted to upload pic,but no pic...unless i stole it frm ur friendster.haha
Thanks again okie dokie biggie bro.. =P
i owe u duit lori ..
we'll have our date next time..hehs.. =)

Random entry.
itu Syaiful juga cakap die don mind menjadi org glamour di blog saya hari ini.
=D

Attention:
I am really in the cruicially bad state of missing my darlings.
Eating not wet, Sleeping not full and Bathing not "lena".
Namely Hik, Krun, Nisa, Shahidah, Taufik Batisah..Hady Mirza..
and whoeva yg tak tahu malu nk aku rindu korg.
Coz if u suddenly miss or think bout sum1, dat particular person is thinking and missing u,ryte? =)
So easy said, if u miss me, i will miss u more. =D
So anyone who wants to be missed by me, sila angkat perot !!
Joking.
do beep me..let me be informed dat im being missed...awww...
HYAAKDUSH!!!!

gtg.
much Love,
FYRA

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all - in - 1

2008-10-04T08:14:00.000-07:00

Hello hello. =)

Reply of Taggies : To...

Chacha: Hello chacha syg!!!! =D
Nisa: Haha..Yes,i do have sumthing against policemen. They betta not be seen by me. hehe =D
Taufiq: Baru nk maafkan kau..tap bila part fyra-un je...ahh....kemaafan ditarik balik ok.
Ratna: Haha..hady oh hady..almaklum..die kn bz man on TV..hehs.
Shaa: Thanks. But..who are u?
Dja: Hello Dja syg!!!!! =D

DONE.

Lets not talk about LOVE anymore, ok?
sum1 didnt like it. *shrugs*
but heck,my blog..ryte?

Yesterday was fun. Lets just summarise it.
Sch was ok i guessed despite of last minute sumthin.
James said i looked like an Indonesian actress.. hehe.. =D
An abrupt change of plan wif Rezz.
Got offered for modelling but im gona reject it,i guess.
Met sum peeps back in Town.
Had impromptu convo wif *skip*.
Lepak session wif Rezz.

Shahrezza Zuhri (rezz) is a fun and interesting guy. We talk about everything. And since he is in film industry (he's a director of local films), its fun to know the ups and downs and everything in this industry which i have wanted to know. Apart from Eysham, he's the 2nd gerek punya director lh. haha.

If u guys want to know more about him, read this following article :
http://www.asiaone.com/News/Education/Story/A1Story20080917-88317.html
i'm promoting u here, rezz =)

The small mini meet-up was packed wif laughter and naik bulu roma aku stories. =D
After reading the article, i saluted him. =)
want to know the reason?..go and read the article and u will know y.
All i cay say...he's a strong, willful, dedicated, funny, easy to get along n etc person. =)
U guys shud get to know him..and also his works..they are awesomely done. =)
hey rezz..i wud love to personally see u direct one day =)

Back to me. Ive been craving to do lotsa things..things which i have nvr done before and also things which ive been wanting to do so..
Wakeboarding..Rock-climbing..Bag-packing..watching movies..ice-blading..bowling..pool..
Picnic..fishing..flying fox..swimming..exploring sentosa..a day in Town..
having satay at Lau Pa Sat..a night at Esplanade..watching fireworks.. learning how to play guitar..playing keyboard..cycling..Canopy walk at Mount Faber..goint to Zoo.. Go-Karting..going to JB especially..SHEESHA n etc.

Seriously,i cud list down from A-Z of all those things.
N Volunteerism is beginning to get back into my life.
I felt great of myself while doing that. =)

One problem: Even if i cud list down in an A4 size paper of things i want to do, if ur alone..den takde gunenye... Sygs sumer bz kerja. Lagi2 Miss HiK syg..workaholic gillernye. The last time we met up was like months back. =(

Also, sum of my peeps may not share the same interest as mine in doing those things above.
*shrugs*

So i guess..i wud have to be patient till the time comes..
Anyways, if any of u peeps reading this and may want to get involved in my kerja halal, dgn segala hormatnye dipersilakan =D
Jus beep beep me..okie dokie? =)

RANDOMLY...
Eh, im not chubby ryte?
Ppl kip on sakat-ing me..nk cubit2 pipi org apehal..pipi sendri ade pe.
N i got a new nickname: Mata Kucing.
Created and given by : Mr Hairi.
Thanks lh ehhhh....
Ur deeds are unforgivable. I have been a forgiving person all this while to u but yet u took advantage of it. And now, i cant forgive u. Even now I'm still talking to u BUT that doesnt mean ur forgiven. Get that right. (u noe i noe who )
RANDOM =D

ive got an interesting topic to talk about..
"Things which i wanted in and from a man."
hahaah..
nk tahu???

suddenly, im sooo lazy to blog bout this.
Next time lh...Insyallah lau saya tak malas and ingat.
Mudah-mudahan saya ~~lupe~~ ingat. =D

Till then,
much Love,
FYRA

Wasting such moments

2008-10-01T21:13:00.000-07:00

hello hello.

im surprised with this particular girl.
At the same time, im not surprised if sum ppl called her a bitch,slut,cheap or/and etc.
As she's "popular" among guys..any kind of guys..janji guys whom she can lay her hands on..
But being popular in terms of playing around wif guys' feelings and bastard around and flirts around and being "cheap" n etc, tu dh kebabai nye hal,betol tak?

Tell me, which guy wud want a girl like dis?
True..only those "playboy" type and those who wants a one-night stand kinda guys wud love to have dis girl.
But gitu nye perangai pon ade jugak seorg lelaki yg sukekan die..hah!
Tunggu masa je tuu...tap tup, dat guy will have d same fate as all her other victims.. =)

Aqim: Gigi die buat lawak,bodo. haha

Hey Bitch, i noe wad ur doing behind His back. Aku ade kwn2 yg kenal kau. But Missy, flirting around even after u grab sum1's ex is not appropriate. GROW UP. Stop being a Slut. U better change urself, u don want more and more ppl to have bad perceptions of u,ryte?
Mane maruah kau?. Oh aku lupe, kau mane ade maruah..dh jual pon badan kau,ye tak? Suke?
Dah ade matair tu buat hal ade matair lah. Takkn dh ade laki pon kau masih nk flirt around?. Tak penat ke buat keje haram tu?..Dgn kwn2 aku pon kau nk flirt,ape hal?? Tak cukop ke satu? Takleh ke setia pd yg satu? Tak kesiankn matair kau ke..

To dat Guy: I dont want to interfere in ur love life or ur life or wadeva. I have heard lotsa bad things which cud hurt u but i noe who mi am to even inform u bout these. Plz be aware of these things which she is doing behind ur back. I dono y d hell m i even talking to u about this. Up to u to believe. Fyra sebok, kn?

Random.

And after this if i receive any hate tags..haha..i surely noe who.
i din say any names here,so sape2 terase, korg punya hal.
Janji, i noe who exactly im referring to. =)

Btw, had an intresting chat wif Mr H yesterday nite.
About Romeo and Juliet.
Im my own Juliet who will never find my Romeo. =)

So Mr H, keep on being Romeo and ur Juliet will come by. =)
As for me, I have to stop being my own Juliet...i guess..
By being Juliet all this while, it just made disappointment much more severe.

Guys do love taking advantage of girls' kindness, dont dey?
Guys do love playing around wif LOVE, dont dey?
Guys.. =)

If u wana talk about love to me, we can talk the whole day.
I can even object to everything u said.
Lets have a debate =)

Btw, thanks Afdal for d pics.
And i shud b mad as u took my pics dlm diam2..
This applies to two other photographers, u noe i noe.
Suke eh korg amik gmbr aku dlm diam..
Nasib baik lawa..hahahaha..
Lain kali blg nk amik gmbr, aku pose baik2 punye ok?..haha
Lain kali, gue charge,ok?

Much love,
FYRA

short ,sweet n simple entry

2008-09-30T09:16:00.000-07:00

hello freaky peeps.

a huge number of people out dere have been asking me d same old Q..

"Fyra, if He wants u back, wud u give him another chance n accept him back?"

To freaky peeps who have been so called asking the same old Q over n over again..
n also to strangers n unknown peeps who have been doing d same thing..

my ans to all of u is... "SKIP..can? Korg sape nie to know aku nk accept die ke tak?"

this is my own personal stuffs n only i noe d ans n disclose d ans to my closed ones.

so, if any of u are reading this and wanting to ask me the same Q, im gona ans u the same ans... "SKIP,can?"

in the 1st place, die nak balik??? muke die nak balik??? Hah! wad lawak pe..!!

anyways, a short urgent entry to stop people from asking.

btw, im having a coolshit fever.
wad a way to start raya-ing (-_-")

much love,
FYRA

craps from me. dont even bother to read

2008-09-29T21:27:00.000-07:00

Get Hari Raya Graphics Here

i wish all muslims out dere, all my beloved peeps and all my sygs, a Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
Maaf zahir and batin, okie? =)

to Mr Hady: dont be sorry. i understood. valuing sum1 doesnt mean he/she has to be there all the tyme,ryte? Thanks for everything =) . U have been a great someone. =)

This is my 1st raya which im gona celebrate alone eversince im single now, after 2 rayas which i have celebrated it wif sum1.. Its sad n heart-wrenching, like i really3 never expect this to happen. Oh heck..i dono y im crying at dis very moment. Hah! *shoosh*

If He didnt really fit in my criterias of d guy i wanted but yet i cud Loved him all along, accepting all his weaknesses n strength n being dere for him in all ups n downs he went tru, who cud have guessed this rship cud have ended bcoz of a third-party?.

i guess, no matter how loyal, honest, kind, understanding, loving, sacrificing u r wif ur partner, there's a NO guarentee that ur partner will stay true to u. oh shits,can?

Its been freaking 3yrs lah sey..n thanks alot ah for just "buang" aku sebegitu.

i really don understand y my history has to repeat itself again, dibuang kerna org ketiga.

i don really noe wad d hell guys want apart from being so true,honest,loyal,understanding, being dere tru ur shits together..do dey want ur body instead?
oh shrugs. wad else?

im not talking from my personal or saying how good i am..
but im saying dis of general.

ppl around who noes me n those who din noe me, said us both look super sweet together, but yet i have to go tru shits.

i left all my besties n male besties all bcoz i dont want him to have a diff perception or wrong thought between us besties, but yet....wen i have to go tru shits, im all ALONE.

so moral of d story, NEVER to leave ur besties for sum1 u love. He has to understand u n respect dat. i was wrong n wont eva commit d same mistake eva.

oh wells..i dont even bother.

im free now. unlike of i shud kip on thinking his well-being now n den..dh makan ke blom..worrying bout his probs..defending him every now n den..standing up for him weneva everyone else is bringing him down..encouraging him to study n think of his future n music stuffs..putting him above me..yela..kate matair kesayangan aku pe..ah, itu dulu punya citer.

like Mr Sharin said : " jelak?...in my point of view n sum frens, ppl can never be jelak wif u lh.. pretty2 cute2 like dis, who can resist.. =) "

like Hik syg said : " alah...kau kn lawa, hot babe lag..guys will surely come for u nye..don wory ok syg? =) "

like Miss Nisa said : " fyra..kau ade great looks n body..kau pandai..jgn risau lah.. aku confem ramai laki nk kenal2 dgn kau..lagi2 kau dh single. Tyme kau masih attached, laki2 sume nk kenal dgn kau tap tak dpt, now kau dah ade chance. U can find sum1 who really fits ur criterias now n sum1 betta den him.."

like Abg Fadh said : "fyra, He can nvr find sum1 betta than u, who can love him more than u do, who can treat him betta than u do, who can stand all his shits more than u do, who can sacrifice for him more and dont even ask for them to be repaid or ungkit2 more than u do, who can bear wif his perangai better than u do, who can be so loyal to him more than u do, who can understand him more than u do, who can accept his weaknesses more than u do, who can even encourage him bout his future more than u do, who can defend him in all tymes more than u do, who cud care n concern about him more than u do, who can help him all the tyme better than u do, who can be honest to him more than u do, who can keep on giving him chances every now and then more than u do, who can forgive and forget more than u do, who can tahan being hurt by him more than u do, even his family loves u n can nvr love anyone else n everything else..trust me. The only thing he can get more from someone than u are CRAPS and Girls' sensitivity. Girls mmg cepat mrajok n moody, trust me, he's gona get a girl who's more moody n prangai kebabai more than u. Gua guarentee gillenye babe!!! Datz wad he can get, for a guy like him who nvr appreciates n threw away a diamond for a stupid stone. =) n no wonder, if one day, he will come back to u =) "

Heck. being single doesnt mean u nid to noe every guys,ryte?
yg Hot2 hunks, ok lah.. hahahahahaha.

Love is blind. or Love makes people blind?

oh shoots. Dari topic sal raya, terus jump to rship. Grrrr..*slaps forhead*

betta stop now.

gtg,nk kemas rumah.

much love,
FYRA

3 little pics..not 3 little pigs

2008-09-29T00:30:00.000-07:00

Hello Hello Hello.

"Helloooooooooo"..hah.
Krun surely gona sembelih me wen she read dat.
haha

these 3 nice pics (i dono whether its me or his shot which made them nice) are entirely taken by Mr Shahrill.

So Mr Shahrill, by chance if ur reading dis, THANKS a million, okie? =)

Gtg.
Off to JB baby!!
yeah..ryteeee nooowwwww...

much love,
Fyra

Intro-duct-tion. Get it?

2008-09-28T06:32:00.000-07:00

hello hello hello freaks.

Fyra's back !!!

It took me some time to really2 decide whether to restart my blog as ive closed down the old boogie oogie blog.
Based on my surroundings..thus, ive decided to do so.
Starting to enjoy my singlehood now. I din really want to but heck,sum1 forced me so.
n thus, here i am.. =)

For a start, if you guys happened to drop by my blog somehow, do inform me of ur blog add as ive forgotten some of those links. Okie, babes n dudes?

Anyways, ive finally reached my ideal weight of 50kg !!!
oh wells, its 49 or 50..btween dere. (Hik,kau jgn jelous)
si bertebal a.k.a mamat krun (haha) pgl aku cikeding.
n Krun syg ckp aku kudut.
argh!!!!!

Ah..janji body figure tetap ade.
oooooohhhhhh sexy.... =D

Aku bulan posa nie dh cekik mcm2 during sahur and buka.
Tapi still weight maintain 49-50kg.
Coolshit kape.. =D
Hotstuffs sexy diva is back again.. =)
ryte krun syg?? =D

As for my life, honestly im still in d process of recovery. As my heart was crashed n crushed till tiny bits, it really take me a long time to heal it.
Anyways, i do have my beloved peeps around me.
Thanks to them, they are my source of strength.
Its not the end, its d beginning. What made it difficult is having to let go of the past.
Im really grateful to God. =)
Alhamdulillah.

Started schooling,did volunteer in some events and on TV. hah!
Ramadhan-on-wheels 2008 under 4PM.. Tabung Amal Aidilfitri 2008..n soon ehem2 =)
Cool..made many new friends.. =)
H=) . Sharin =) . Rizuan . Ain =) . Attica . Shahrezza =) . Bad =) ...n many2 more. =)
Bunch of ITE Dover peeps..
and some from outside.
They make at a point in my life very fun n happening. =)
They invited me along for their trip to Thailand in Jan nxt yr eventho im just an outsider, oh well..lets see.. =)

Im freaking lazy to upload pics during the ROW n TAA events.
Have a look at them in my friendster.
As for TAA, ive yet to get those pics.

Till den..
much love,
fyra.