enuf said.

to some peeps, sorry....

K. BYE.

Helloooooo rakyat jelata singapura!!!

=D

tga takde keje so i just update lor.
am sms-ing 5zullah while typing dis entry and also am watching tv...
multi-tasking babe. haha

today.SATURDAY.4th JULY 09.
marks FerKa|Sha's 3rd monthasary.
weee !!!! =D

i just find it funny to think back on how d 3 of us met and became close.
i never expect this. we are soo close eventho kite baru kenal..d closeness mcm dh 1 or 2 yrs dh kenal.. hmm...
wadeva it is im just so uber grateful to have them in my life.
=D

FerKa|Sha.
Fer...Ka|...Sha.
Ferrera (me)...Ka| (khairul)...Sha (aiSha).

i met aisha 1st during 4PM volunteer's training. normal meet up. din really slack together.
but we do MSN quite alot. haha..n random lepakin sessions wif d rest *ehem ehem*.

n me n aisha met khairul during 4PM nitecycling.
as he's our safety cyclist. (we were in d same group)
frm dere we FB-ing n chat which den leads to our 1st meet up..KARAOKE-ing !!! =D

as aisha n khai are in d same sch..n as i am schling nearby..
everyday after sch i wud drop by their's n lepak..
n i tell u..for weeks straight, i met them every single day except for sundays. hehs.
n dats wer we became soo close...

however, ours wasnt a smooth sailing one.
we went tru lotsa ups n downs...despite us knowing each other for awhile..
but we grew stronger every now n den.
only God noes how close we are.
we love each other soooooo uber much =D

enuf said.
take a look at these pictures.
we took a hell of pics...bnyk giller giller bnyk.
but i only randomly picked some.. d rest are in my FB. =D



currently, akak is in KL having a short getaway trip.
hope she's enjoying herself.
hopefully she doesnt get toooooo wasted. =D
akak, jgn sampai end up wif random mat rempit ok syg?

n currently abg is sick. tsk.
i hope he will be fine asap.
im worried. tsk.
i check on him every now n den.
abg,get well soon aite...

am looking forward for another FerKa|Sha lepak session to celeb our 3 monthasary.
hopefully all goes well for us n we grow stronger by each minute and nothing cud ever break us up.
remember our promises/oaths, loves? =)

suddenly im thirsty.
tsk.
gtg, loves.

=D

Hear me mister fucker.



u deserve no respect at all.

dere are loads of negativity which is going around in my head. yesterday. now.
and its clouding my mind. suffocating my every breath.
its been awhile since i last being in dat end shit moment.
i cant let it all out. mayb i just dont want to. here. or to anyone.

the moment the left cheek feels dat skin, wif an ouch..
d only thing that goes tru the mind is : it ends tonight.
im not referring to d above song.
its just : it ends tonight, mister idiot.

i hate u.
i just wana take a carrot and shove it up ur ass.
i just wana take a screwdriver and screw ur eyes out its sockets.
i just wana drag out ur tongue and shred it up using d paper shredder.
i just wana use a can opener and pick off every nail or urs.
i just wana hammer down ur dick using a meat hammer.
i just wana pull off ur balls and place it inside a blender.
i just wana pour super glue all over ur head and hair, let it dry hard and then pluck if off one by one.

i can list down all d things i wud love to do to u.
i will do all dat to u..wif LOVE.

suck ur own balls ,mister fucker.

i gtg.
im being lenient a lil towards my entry.
or i wud love to fill it up wif lotsa F words.
n NOW, only 10% of my anger is out.
d rest... =)
bye.

sumhow the pleasure feeling which i found from someone is coming back..
his come back presence truly exhibits a nice feeling..
yearning it?
indeed it was left in a tiny corner of my heart and i did try to ignore that feeling..
but sumhow it has all added up to a bigger pile.
cant be left ignored anymore..i guess..
d only reason y i left it hidden in a corner is bcoz i do see a possibility dat it will lead to another issue but i just dont wana get involved in dat issue at dis moment as my perception of dat issue kinda differs frm anybody else as i gained it from my past experience..own experience.

however..
mayb i will just let it flows out bit by bit.
n am sorry for hiding dis n being away, silencing my presence.

peeps..confused?
haah.

Kau hanya wajah biasa di mataku
Pasti lenyap sederas tibamu
Tak perlu aku memikirkan mu selalu

Kau tiba pada waktu tak terduga
Dalam mimpi dan di dalam jaga
Sehingga aku bukan diriku yang dulu

Soalnya hati, sukar di mengerti
Apa terjadi di luar kawalan diri
Entah mengapa sejak bersua
Aku dilanda resah
Kau mewarnai mimpiku
Ku dalam igauan rindu

Kau yang biasa kini istimewa
Engkau membuat hidupku berubah
Yang ku cari-cari selama ini
Telah ku temui…

figure it out urself.

bye.

....

Boooooo..

my blog is now officially re-opened back once again.

due to some terkencet dan masalah teknikal, i closed my blog. its been mths and now..im OPEN ! =D

so till here.

i will update more in next entry aye.

now kena selit back into my study mode. (ya right)
my headache has been cucuk-ing my head since just now.
i dono y but i think d headache has something against me.

k2. gtg.

love ya peeps.

Sorry for d absence.
A lot of people asked why didnt i update n yada yada..
LOL
Korg suke bace blog aku tap tak reti nk tag kat blog aku ah?
HMPH.
It works both way..ok people? hehe..

Im cool. Im fine.
I do still have soar throat. tsktsktsk
so peeps, bear wif my rock voice for the tyme being..ok?
tsk.

Let's just update bout my weekends since i have ntg to update but peeps bugged me so.
Malas nie actuallie..nk update pics sume..grr...

SATURDAY, had a mini surprise picnic for Irwan.
i woke up early in d morning on a Saturday,which i seldom do..n whipped up his favourite dish.
D smell filled up d whole house...it even woke mama up.

As i was preparing to pack it up..
Mama came and gave me this "are-you-serious" look..
i just ignore it n continue doing wad i was doing coz i was pretty much catching d time.
Mama asked me why did i tapao..
i just merely told her, its for lunch.
n she kip on asking why and for who n yada2..
i just smiled n din say anything..

she kinda fed-up..hehs.. coz i never cook for anyone else beside my family..
oh well, i did cook for frens for picnic but not specially cook dis lauk lah..
mama just reminded me to smile and selawat.
which i usually did..
n when she's 3 feet away frm d kitchen exit,
she smiled and said " Good Luck" and left.
haha.. LOLOLOLOL

kinda rushing here and dere coz i have volunteer meeting thingy ah 4PM at 10am later..
4PM as in a malay youth org not the TIME. ok,peeps?. =D


D meeting was fun..really..
met up wif a bunch of new and cool peeps.
slacked..talked-cock..crapped..laughed,...
=D


Ended early so headed to Bishan to meet Irwan as he was from work.
Bought rice at d foodcourt .
Met him up and we both spent 40mins heating our butts otw from Bishan to Marine Parade.
n he kept on trying to guess wad i had planned for him.. =P


So we found a bench..sat n i told him d surprise.
i cant describe his reaction towards d surprise.
which i specially cooked for him his fav dish.hehs.
im happy dat he liked it..he ate pretty much..tak cukop lagi..heh.

wahlandey..1st tyme dok aku buat kerje gini...
1st tyme masak tok org lua...
nervous giller.....
im just contented dat he appreciated it.
=)

he brought along his guitar n he played it while singing sum songs..indon songs...his own songs...sounded romantic huh huh huh?

haha..truout d evening..,truout d sunset session..=D

personally, i appreciated wad he had done..even if it was just small things but it did make me smile. =)

its been awhile since i last saw him..but den....hush hush. haha....although i think wad i had done for him may be not as big or grand or tak menepati citarasa ke..but im grateful dat he liked it.. =)

so..enuf said.. pics below.












SUNDAY...a slacked day..

i actuallie jogged in d wee morning hours..for freaking 30 whole mins..ok ok, it might sound like DUH to u..

but personally, it was a nice achievement for myself who havnt been jogging for months...hahahaha

i noe how much u all missed me..
lagi2 si Mr Shah a.k.a ASH. =D
oh Ash..i noe u miss me..
=D

well...during my absence, there were lotsa things happened around.
joy..pain..laughter..smile..tears..n etc.

But now..a new year just begun.. n im sure im not d only one who is hoping for a better n brighter future...ryte,peeps?

Too much things happened but lets not talk bout them,ok?
lazy liao..tooo many...dah nnt satu entry je makan berpuluh-puluh page.
unless ur my peminat setia mcm ASH. =D
im making u famous here, ash. =D

Countdown at Marina was fun.. really..
apart frm getting the honour to spray foam onto ASH.. =D
n felt free love from those banglas around..
n got winked n smiled at..
n cute policemen cum my heroes around to save me..indeed dere was once who saved me from those freaking banglas... =D

ok lah..not much to talk about sey..
n laziness starts to smack my butt.

lau korg perasan, bnyk kali name ASH disebot.
hahahaha..

=P

so enjoy these b4-&-after countdown pics.



>>> A unique pose frm Yours Truly. =D